I am utterly fascinated by the people who have elaborate bullet journals. They are so creative and use their journals as their form of art and creative outlet. I watched many videos and saved many-a-pins and tried to get into it. The truth is, I’m too much of a perfectionist to have the type of bullet journal I see online.

Bullet journal:  [source: tumblr]

The truth is I envy these creative people who can spend hours on layouts and spreads. They are quite impressive and I wish I could do it. I tried. I gave it a solid effort, but I have to give up the bullet journal ghost.


IT IS VERY TIME CONSUMING


The layouts online take a very long time. I worked on one that wasn’t even close to the detail as the one shown above and it took me over an hour. All I did were a few lines using a ruler and some attempts at calligraphy. It still did not turn out the way I wanted it to and I wasn’t inspired by it.


NOT GOOD FOR MY PERFECTIONIST MIND


Ever since elementary school, if I made the tiniest mistake on anything I had to scrap and start all over. I would try to salvage the project, but my inner perfectionist was not having it. I see some bullet journal spreads with crossed out pages, but I cannot deal… it’s either perfect or it is not.


I COULD NOT FIND THE RIGHT LAYOUTS


There are a billion layouts out there for every possible thing one may want to track.  I tried a few and no matter how much I tweeked it, combined ideas and methods the concept never quite fit my style. Combine that with the above quest for bullet journal perfection and you have a recipe for failure and frustration. Going back to reason number 1, this became a time-suck; wasted time I could have used on other hobbies that bring me happiness and joy.

 


ATTEMPTED TO TRACK TOO MUCH AT ONCE…AND FOR WHAT?


Tracking everything you do, spend, eat, read, sneeze, or drink can be a mindfu*k.  I am exaggerating, of course, but once you start down that daily tracking road it is hard to turn back.  Yesterday, I turned back. I tore out my failed-attempts at creative, Tweetable, Instagramable layouts and popped them in the garbage.

The primary reason? I already have a planner. In fact, I was tracking my spending on a note page on the opposite of the last week of April’s weekly layout. Breaking with my perfectionism, I tore that page out leaving me without a daily sheet for April 27-30th.

My inner critic screamed as I tore out the page, but I ignored her. Not having three days in my planner would not ruin my existence. I already track my spending in an old-school checkbook ledger.

[Favorite post by Cait Flanders that inspired me to move beyond tracking: http://caitflanders.com/2016/10/11/stop-tracking-start-making-intentional-decisions/ ]

I already have a planner with the best pre-designed layout that works for me. A lot of people get into bullet journaling because pre-printed layouts did not fit their style. I am one of the lucky people who these work for. I have the monthly calendar and a weekly breakdown with lots of space for to do lists and notes.

So while I have deep admiration for those of you who can do this, I am walking away and giving up the ghost of the bullet journal.

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Hello Readers,

March was a long month! My reading felt a bit slacked and that is because, well, it was and still kind of is. I find that by the time I finish up at the office, come home and do wifely things, workout and clean up the house it is 10pm before I know it. I haven’t had a chance to have some solid reading time and I am behind in my podcasts! Oh what to do…

Last month I had a chance to listen to my first audiobook that was fiction. I have mixed feelings about it, mostly because I am not an experienced audiobooker but I will give more a chance and see what makes a good and bad fiction on audio “read.” But that is another post.

 


BOOKS READ IN MARCH


1. Chocolat – Joanne Harris (Re-read Project) – 5 stars! I love this book & read it every year.

2. By Gaslight — Steve Price – 2 stars – Disappointing ending for such a massive book.

3. Columbine — Abandoned read.  I was a teenager when this happened and while I wanted to read it to understand more about it, it was a little too vivid for me and opened a memory box I no longer wish to visit.


BOOKS TO READ IN APRIL

My to be read list is growing and at a fast pace than I can read.

I bought the books in the photo above except for “Special Topics…” That book I bought a while ago and during my Minimalism decluttering I popped this into my give away box. I regretted it a few weeks later. I kept hearing it suggested on the “What Should I Read Next” podcast and thought I’d just rent it from the library. A few weeks later my husband comes in with it in his hands and says, “I found this in my trunk. It must have fallen out of the giveaway box.” It was meant to be!

For April, I need to finish Pachinko by Min Jin Lee. I am about half way through and while I love it so far, I just have not had solid time to read more. April I plan to set aside time for reading again. In February, I actually marked “Read – 1 hour” in my daily to do list. It was not because I did not feel like reading, but scheduling it in was necessary to make sure I set dedicated time aside to do so.

I will also begin reading Agatha Christie’s Poirot short stories collection:

 (Roses – thanks to my husband)

And now for some madness…

I have read several Stephen King books and he is a brilliant story teller. I know his name is thrown around but he really is one of the best writers of all time. He is a best seller for a reason. Next on my list is this gem:

 

 

As for the Re-Read Project, I believe I will revisit “The Picture of Dorian Gray” by Oscar Wilde.

Here I am with Mr. Wilde in Dublin, Ireland. We had a nice chat, though I did most of the talking.